I am sharing this because while these suicides are getting attention due to the public life that these people lived, there are approximately 123 suicides in America per day, and nearly 50,000 suicides a year. These numbers don’t take suicide attempts into consideration.
I share this with you, because I, myself have struggled with depression and anxiety my entire life. I have been in therapy since I was 8 years old and have had multiple unspeakable traumas occur over the course of my 29 years on this earth. I have been fortunate enough to be able to go to one of the best treatment centers in the country twice when I felt like life wasn’t worth living anymore.
I have never acted on my suicidal ideations despite the fact that it was something that was circulating in my mind every second, of every minute, of every hour, of every day at some points.
I write this because a lot of people are sharing things that say “just reach out.” I am here to say it’s not always that simple. The very nature of depression is isolative. We would reach out if we could, but our minds tell us things like “I don’t want to be a burden,” “they won’t know what I’m going through,” “the world would be better without me in it,” “there is no hope for me” and a million other things.
Mental illness is a real thing, if you disagree, talk to me, talk to one of a number of friends I have who have shared my struggle. The fact that these people had opportunities and privilege doesn’t negate their incredibly real struggle. Also, let’s pay attention to all the other people who have died and those who are currently struggling because mental health is not an accessible commodity for most people in this country.